baby its cold outside

i know, i know. i haven't written since christmas eve and you're all freaking out thinking i ended my blogging days. but have no fear, i am back. i've just been busy, you know, keeping up with my summer 05' sleeping schedule. oh you don't know what that is? that's when you go to sleep at 5am and wake up at 2pm. i basically had 2 weeks off of work, and it was glorious. but yesterday i returned. and to be honest, was too damn down to write anything. the monday after being off for 2 weeks is a really sensitive time in a persons life. i was teetering on homicidal/suicidal. but now that it has come and gone, i feel back in the swing of things again. (is that a good thing? being in the swing of things?...i digress)

i hope everyone had a wonderful christmas (yes i'll say christmas on here, it's my page)! i say chrstimas because i refuse to say 'holiday'. we all know what i'm talking about. and it's not x-mas, how lazy are you? i also hope everyone rang in the new year with someone they love. whether it be family, friends, or an actual lover. 

i don't know why people on facebook get so mad when someone makes a status about the weather. obviously you can look out your window and tell its snowing, but maybe im just writing about it because im so excited. or maybe you dont know its 103 degrees out because you havent stepped outside yet, so youre welcome! they actually waste their time writing an anti-weather status, thus drawing more attention to the weather they so desperately wanted to ignore.


so today is freezing out eh? no but for real, its 7 degrees and the windchill makes it feel like 12 degrees below zero. we are literally in a polar vortex. A POLAR VORTEX. (has my second dream come true and my life is actually a movie?) i almost expect to walk outside and see chinese tourists frozen in their places with their cameras pointed at the freedom tower. 

my legs were literally burning this morning walking to the bus. i also managed to get a brain freeze just from walking against the wind. i immediately thought of my survival skills and how if i got lost in the woods in the middle of winter, id definitely die quickly. i also thought about how freezing to death must be horribly painful. then i thought maybe freezing to death wouldn't be so bad if it meant i could stop walking and not go to work. but i kept walking, didnt freeze to death, and am here. anticipating the cold wait for the bus after dark tonight.

the bus was a pleasant safe haven today. i mean dont get me wrong, the MTA still sucks dick. BUT the bus was perfectly toasty with a side of quiet. i often sleep more soundly on the bus than in my own bed. go figure.